False hopes.

02 Sep 2010 3 Comments

by Samantha in Uncategorized

First, I have to state that  I’m in awe of God. No matter our ridiculousness or lack of sacrifice or selfishness, he still gives abundantly to us. I’m in awe. truly. I want it to make sense in my brain. I want to understand but I just don’t. I mean I do, but I don’t.

So my purpose in writing tonight: I was reading out of 2 Kings 4: 8-37. This is an incredible story that I vaguely remember but I love reading something and feeling like its the first time I’ve heard it. It makes me realize that there is always more to know about God- more to discover and see. He’s awesome.

This story moves me. I cried as I read this woman’s words: “Didn’t I tell you, ‘Don’t raise my hopes?”

I’m afraid of pain, of being hurt. Often I let it scare me from doing so many things because I’m frozen by fear. This woman is feeling afraid and frustrated and hurt. Her son that God blessed her with, she didn’t want to get her hopes up about, has died. I’m thinking she’s a little pissed. because this great desire of her heart, that she didn’t want to hope for was given to her but then was ripped away. Do you have a something like that in your life? Something that you long for so deeply and you’re afraid that once you actually get your hopes up about having it, its going to get ripped away?!

I fear that. There are a few things in my life currently that I’m afraid to trust God with. I’m afraid to get my hopes up and have them be ripped from my life. Does God work like that though? Who or what told me that He does?

This speaks loudly of distrust. Why distrust God? What happened that it got to this point of not being able to trust God with our deepest desires? He’s suppose to be the most reliable, most faithful, longest lasting, unchanging … What’s not to trust?!

my devotional The Message//Remix: Solo asks this question: “What might your life look like if you were to take God at His word, believing that he knows all about you and cares for you tenderly? How might you pray differently? Live differently?”

tell me your thoughts.

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