I think there comes many points in life where you remember what life is really about. How often we got lost in the mundane and the stupid only to be completely jolted back into reality from some crisis or maybe some miracle. At these points, you remember the truth about life- and then you have to make a choice. Its a conscious choice whether to ignore this miraculous moments and continue to die a little inside each day or to recognize the moment in all of its wonder and be changed, drastically.

There are some amazing things happening here in Seattle. Things that are awakening parts of my soul that forgot how to live or for too long I’ve let them remain dormant out of fear or stupidity. Lives are being changed. People are understanding their need for Christ and their lives are changed. They are hungry and vulnerable before the Lord has they cry out to Him. They need Him. I do too.

SO MUCH!

There are things happening. I don’t get it. I don’t understand it but I see it. It is evident. I felt it tonight as I met with my friend Chelsea to fellowship and discuss the next youth event. I don’t understand it but I love it.

I’m starting to feel really excited about my ministry and what God is doing. Its starting to look more real to me which is exciting. I still don’t feel any more ready for what is about to happen but I’m excited that God is doing something.

The youth group has some incredible kids, kids that I am excited to know more. Some of these students have incredible knowledge of Jesus, more understanding of their relationship with the Lord than I did, which is so funny because my mom always used to tell me that she was amazed by my relationship with the Lord. Interesting.

If you read this– pray for me. Pray for the youth ministry that I would find leaders that are better than myself. Pray that the youth would love Jesus more than I could ever fathom. Just pray for guidance and wisdom as I figure out ministry–Help me Lord.

Looking for joy

Today I told myself to look for joy, and beauty. I wanted to have my eyes open to anything that could be healing or restorative in my life. So today I am praising God for a little 5 year old girl named Jennifer. She is hilarious and so sweet. She was in my group on our field trip today and I loved it. There is something so healing in holding a small childs hand and seeing them get afraid where they need a hand to hold. Sometimes I feel like that- desperate for a hand to hold, like I could do anything if I just had that hand to hold.  We went a trip to the Seattle aquarium and this little girl was poking at the sea anemone. Its little tenticles started to surround her fingers and she said “its kissing me.” How cute! and so SWEET! I was just blessed by the child likeness today. Its fun to have the favor of a kid, even when they are a terrible listener.

So I was searching for joy today. I think I found it in a multitude of things. God is good and does care for us. He provides encouragement so often, if only we open our eyes to see it.