Well as I’ve started to think about what this blog should actually look like, I’m feeling a little nervous about having to write. I’m what people would call “A Feeler.” I feel things and feel them deeply. So writing is a lot about getting those feelings out, but I don’t want this blogger to be about that. Yet I’m finding it hard to know what to write. So I guess I’ll just start with a little bit more about myself.
I’m a cat person. At the ripe age of 4, my parents gave me a kitty. She was one of the best things in my life growing up and has played a major role in establishing me as a “cat person.” Since I am such, I am not a fan of dogs of any size, but especially not big dogs or dogs that smell like dog. Though, there are a few dogs that I don’t really mind. They know who they are.
Some of my most favorite things are: lemonade with iced tea, the tv show “Scrubs,” the smell of books, mash potatoes specifically my own mother’s whipped tators, coffee; drinking it and making it for others, dancing obnoxiously, singing loudly, rap music, laughing, listening to stories, being sarcastic, fluffy pillows, fuzzy blankets, journaling, famous or inspiring quotations, playing card games, and spending time with friends. I love candles, probably not as much as my roommate Jackie, but I love them. I am an ice chewer. I love to chew on ice. I think fruit by the foot is one of the best snacks and remind me of my childhood. Lastly, I adore music. I strong believer in loud music. Some of my favorite music moments include loud music in a car with friends singing at the top of their lungs. That is beautiful.
I think people are so interesting. I work in a place where I encounter LOTS of people in a day. I don’t have a lot of moments to do people watching but often I find myself analyzing brief moments of interaction with these different people I see. Its so incredibly profound the fact that God can be so different to each and everyone person. That He is at work in their lives; revealing Himself to them in ways that speak the loudest to them. Even in my moments with them– there is potential for effect, for influence. There is an episode of the TV show “Scrubs” that talks about how the smallest of events can change the course of a whole day of a events. I know that some of my moments with people do have the potential to put me in a tizzy of frustration or discouragement. So how much does my interaction with them affect their day? Its hard for me to understand that there is a possibility of influence or impact in my job. Its easier for me to be discouraged outside of ministry because I can’t seen the greater good. Sometimes I wonder if I could just change my perspective of my job, and “choose fun” maybe life wouldn’t seem as pointless and boring.
