Awake is the new sleep- so wake up

I’ve been learning a lot about myself. I love it and hate it, at the same time, in the same breath, in the same sentence.

I blame these books:

A poem

I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING SO SIMPLY

I want to write something

so simply

about love

or about pain

 that even

as you are reading

you feel it

and as you read

you keep feeling it

and though it be my story

it will be common,

though it be singular

it will be known to you

so that by the end

you with think—

no, you will realize—

that it was all the while

yourself arranging the words,

that it was all the time

words that you yourself,

out of your own heart

had been saying.

___ Mary Oliver

New Years Resolutions

I haven’t created my 2010 New Year Resolutions yet, but I wanted to look back on 2009 and be encouraged by the resolutions I accomplished! Even the ones that I didn’t. I have a couple of ideas about resolutions.

1. Make a bunch of resolutions, you’re bound to acheive a few.

2. Don’t let yourself get caught in fear of failure.  It’s inevitable with some resolutions but like I said earlier today- I hope I never fail so much that I stop trying.

3. Be confident and challenge yourself.

Have fun with it and get excited about the potential of this incredible year!

a quote

“Many of you will feel as I do, that the troubles of these times are greater than can be resolved by human wisdom alone. And today, to a world distracted and anxious and uncertain comes once again the good news of Christmas in its wonder of God’s power and love reaching out to help and save men from failure and frustration.”

 King George VI of England during WWII as quoted by Harris and Court in Proverbial Leadership.

 

Something Old

Things of this world will wound me. It is inevitable. The world is unfair but grace isn’t fair either and I’m glad that I have that. Life isn’t about picking and choosing. Sometimes things just work a certain way because they do. You work with both blessings and curse, good/bad, lies/truth, etccc. You run with it. Journey on. Fly in it. Crawl in it. Get pulled thru it. Run in it. Stand tall in it. This is where you get to chose in it all. How do you respond?

We’re all wounded vessels, desperate for answers, for truth, for understanding. It doesn’t come to us always in the ways we believe are best, but it comes. The world wants to be fooled some say. Maybe that’s true. Becasue the truth asks much of us, demands more. It’s not any easier in the truth unless the basic face of living in something real and pure and holy gives resolve and understanding that makes all the demands worth it. That even though it may hurt like hell, and our crap will be revealed; the purity and beauty of the truth outlasts the wounds and the  mess to show its worth. (May 21st 2007)

A completed New Year’s Resolution

Vancouver, British Columbia, CANADA

I did it! I actually completed a resolution. “Go to Vancouver” DONE. CHECK.

a recent obssession

I saw one of these at Starbucks today. It was so adorable. For some reason, it reminds me of an alien. They are little and fat. I love that.

a love

Getting it together…

Some special ladies and I seeing Mat Kearney

One of the decisions that I’ve made in the last couple months of my life is this: Have fun!

I’ve been trying to do that. So, I went to the Mat Kearney show. I went to the midnight showing of The Twilight Saga: New Moon. I wore a skirt with black tights. I sang karaoke at The Rickshaw, all by myself (along with Kristi a few times).  I’ve been journaling practically every day for the past month. I’ve been staying up late with friends. I’ve been singing loudly for random reasons. I’ve laughed loudly for no reason. I’ve enjoyed my alone time. I’ve been knitting like a maniac some nights. I’ve rejoiced in the truth. I’ve also cried because of the lies. Yet, I’ve seen victory in my life. I’ve enjoyed it, really, truly enjoyed it. Thank you God for life.